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[Jun. 19th, 2005|09:42 pm] |
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I would just like to say that right now life rocks, no school, and actually being able to hang out with firends and listen to music, and to top it off, i have a gf who rocks, what more could a man want.things are good, and there are really few complaints.
Like is good, i feel good i have time to do all the things i want it rocks. I mean, life is good, so i guess thats it. And i just dinished camp and that rocks, man life is good. Peace. |
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[Jun. 4th, 2005|09:47 pm] |
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I just came back from the movies, i saw star wars again, and of course it rocked. But with me i brought the subject, or what will lead to the subject, of this live journal. The item i brought with me was a book, entitled, Siddhartha. The book realy is something that makes you wonder, and helps you reflect on life throught the main characters experieences. The main character, Siddhartha, goes through these religious and spiritual journey, now i havent finished the story, but, so far it is very well written.
The point i am trying to make is that i feel, that maybe i wonder to much, or rather i thirst for more knowledge than i should, yet at the same time i feel i must search, and thirst for knowledge. I feel that to many people are ingnorant at this hour, and that i shall find myself, and essentialy do what Buddha did, find inner peace, as well as myself. I feel that no one right now knows about what is really the center of our lives. I cant explain it, and i know most of you will never feel what i feel now. I dont know anymore.
Not to long ago, a good friend of mine asked me the question, who are group would be haning out with, and where we would be in life, if he wasnt dating someone that he cares for, from what i can see very deeply. I had thought about the question many times before, and i always thought that i would feel i would be living a better life, even at the time i thought this. I didnt answer the question fully, but in my mind i thought i know the answer. But as i pnder more on it, and as i have been thinking about i have realized something. Out of all the problems that i have had from his relationship, out of all the hate that i feel from these other members of the group, i have realized something i feel i couldve never reailized without the help of Siddhartha. That from my definace to never fall in to their belifes, the determination to just live my way even while being called and being told they hate my sin but love me. That through his relationship, maybe even love, i have grown to be someone i could have never seen myself becme, not filled with hate for their religon, more in peace with myslef, closer to be like Buddha, and although not their i feel i am closer than i wouldve been. I have learned so much about life and peace, and it isnt thanks to being with good friends rather, being with those who love me but hate my sin. I havent told my friend this, but if he is reading this i think he just might be pleased.
I have so many wonders of life, so much to learn to become Buddha, one who has found inner peace. I could only dream to reach that state. but i am determined to make it. Siddhartha, although not real, has taught me so much and hopefully there is more to come. I feel that i am one step closer to me journey. For now ill press on to be Buddha. |
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[May. 31st, 2005|09:00 pm] |
So, world i would like to say this, i am not the anti christ just thought you might want to know. OK James get it straight, i am far from the anti christ. I mean do i een seem like the anti christ.
On lighter news, life is good, i think i am developing a better friendship with the girl i like, well see. lol thats all peace out i am goning to watch sharpes. |
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[May. 26th, 2005|11:15 pm] |
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Let me just start off saying that i am not listening to music, therefore this writing may be shitty, or who knows but i am just warnning you. Ok first thing is first, i am tired of stupid extremist in religions, to be more specific the Christian religion. What people just dont get is that i dont hate the religion, i dont even hate the guy, rather i hate some things that happened around him, and the peoples actions that follow him. For example, today on the bus, a kid i know, cough cough Jamie Copeland, tells me that i hate jesus. Woah now slow down i dont say that, i say i hate a lot of christian people, and i dont like the belifes, yet now i hate Jesus and the religion. Comon people, i dont hate the religion just you.
On the lighter side of the news, lol, i crack myself up, anyways, I am really pumped because i really like this girl as you hae probably heard me rant on before, and i just think about her a lot, and yada yada yada. But the point i am trying to get to is this, the plan, lol, the plan, is to get to know ehr more, and i know her just i would like to no her more, and then ask ehr out. Maybe ill be lucky and shell say yes, or maybe ill F up, and shell hate me. I dont know for sure but i can hope cant i.
Well i am out, Peace, and..... i dont know dont do drugs or something. |
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| Wtf |
[May. 25th, 2005|08:43 pm] |
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Today, i have a lot of things to talk about. So i will start with something less bothering to me. My sister. Now i love my siter, as a sister, but recently she has been rally bitchy, thinking she is all that and a bag of chips. I mean, anything i do, or have she has to knopw about and have. Sometimes i like my privacy. A wierd as this sounds, its like a territorial thing. Sometimes i like her out of my arua. But she doesnt get that message, maybe she is going through some change, but i am tired of being bossed around by her. And doing things she wants me to do, like homework, copying mine and getting me in trouble, fuck that. Another thing, she tells everyone something and tells them that she is right and i am wrong, and then people come up to me and yell at me for something i didnt do. WTF! Leave me alon people.
Ok, now the more important issue. Throught out my grade i am know as the Anti Christ. Ok for the first part, i have nothing against jesus, just his followers. Yeah i dont think he is the son of god, i dont hink he thought he was the son of god. But the point i am trying to make here is that i dont hate christ, i hate his followers. You see you ass holes say the dumbest things and have the worst beliefs, you are hipocrits, and you have a grudge against those who dont follow your ways. Its not your beliefs, its that you enforce them in the worst way ever. If you just did it in a nice way, and stopped accusing people of things i could talerate you. Second thing, get your facts straight! The Anti Christ, first od all is loved by millions, he is clamed christ by a high church figure, he is very poepular with the religion. Let me compare myself to him, i have a lot of friends but not millions, i havent been clamed christ, i am not popeular in the christian religion. Comon people put the pieces together, i am not the anti christ, i am far from it. Because i am not Christian does not mean that i am ant Christ.
My third problem is the stereo types of Buddhist. No right know i am still determining what i believe in, but for now i am Pegan Taoism, Buddhism, and some other mixes. But any time i mention that, i instantly worship a fat guy. WTF!!!!!! I dont worship the guy, i believe in the way he lived and his ideas i dont worship him. My god is not a fat guy get it right. I believe in many things he believed in. So all i have to say is get it right.
For all of you slow people today, i will sumerize. Dont be so demanding and boss (cough cough Erinn) Before you go talking about somone get your facts straight, i am not the ant christ your religion says so. And finally i dont worship Buddha i believe in his ways. Thats all i have to say |
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[May. 24th, 2005|08:50 pm] |
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Yeah, i dinished my book today, i thought i would share. I would just like to say, that life is pretty good right now. I just have thought about this year, and remebered some good times. That all i really have to say. Lol, just thought i would post. Peace! |
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[May. 20th, 2005|06:09 pm] |
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So, i dont know about you guys but it just seemse that things school wise are building up. But i dont know, i just feel that things are building up on me as the year is coming to end. But it seems like i wasted a year away, and it will be sad to leave this grade, this has been one of my favorite grades ever. I know that i have four more, and then at least another four. But i know this will be a year i will never forget. The teachers and the things i learned, not just school wise, but knowledge of many subjects.
On lighter news, i do like somone, but i know she doesnt like me, like, at all, i dont think, but i really like her. The plan is to talk to her alot. Bring up things she likes get to know her. All of that fun stuff. I hope shell come to like me as i like her. But hey will see if it works out. I can dream cant i. Lol, but what can i say. So pray for me, lol, but not through Jesus, lol, its kool, but i hope to sway her to like me. Sweep her off her feet. Well i am out. |
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| WTF |
[May. 18th, 2005|09:19 pm] |
I just thought that today i would share some problems, not in my life but in the lives of other, which kinda affects my life. You see about one out of three people cut in my grade. This is just disturbing as it is, i mean i could line kids up in the hallway and every three of them would cut.
Many times i have said that it seams that are generation has no greatness, no prodigys, rather it is filled with anti heros. I have yet to find somone who really fillse the qualities of a good kid. Yes there are a few, but they are being corupted as i write this message. The point i am trying to make is, WTF!!!!!!!!! What the hell is wrong here, yeah maybe its like this in every generation, i feel like i am in a worse seventies era. Everyone i know, knows somone who cuts, does drups, or both. And what i am saying is that someone F'ed up. Now, i am not blaming parents, I am blaming kids, and their ways of dealing with problems, i mean, as mean as this is going to sound, i have to say it, hey my day was bad, i have an idea i am going to go cut my wrist. This would be funnier if i havent heard that line before.
Today i am not going to leave a spread, I ching, medicine cards, nothing i am going to leave something of more valur for my generation. WTF, i am sorry but there are better ways to relieve depression, anger, ect. You need to be happy, as hard as that is. Move on, as mean as that sounds, find a better way. |
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[May. 13th, 2005|08:56 pm] |
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Sorry about the last entry just kinda ingore it because i dont want to go back and fix it. But as I was saying our generation sucks. I dont know what it is about us, but we just suck at everything. Maybe it is our age, maybe it is the new drugs, maybe it is our drama, or maybe i am overreacting the situation, but whatever it is it really is affecting my positive Ki.
Second problem, how come when i know somone who has something bad happen to them, i in a sense get blamed, why is that. I hate it because i just want to live my life the best i can having good times. Yeah i know there will always be bad times, but to many make the bad times too bad, at their own fault.
Third problem, why do people dwell on the past. Move on what the fuck is wrong with you people, i am just kidding, and i know i am pissing people off, but as hard as it is you need to move on. Hence forth i am going to write the chorus of a great dave cd on this entry, ending with the I Ching and Runes
Neon shines through smoky eyes tonight
It's 2 am I'm drunk again it's heavy on my mind
I could never love again so much as I love you
Where you end where I begin is like a river going through
Take my eyes take my heart I need them no more
If never again they fall upon the one I so adore
Excuse me please one more drink
Could make it strong cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart my Grace is gone
One more drink and I'll move on
One drink to remember then another to forget
How could I ever dream to find sweet love like you again
One drink to remember and another to forget
Excuse me please one more drink
Could make it strong cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart my Grace is gone
One more drink and I'll move on
One more drink and I'll be gone
You think of things impossible and the sun refuse to shine
I woke with you beside me your cold hand lay in mine
Excuse me please one more drink
Could make it strong cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart my Grace is gone
One more drink and I'll go
Excuse me please one more drink
Could make it strong cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart my Grace is gone
One more drink and I'll move on
One more drink and I'll be gone
One more drink my Grace is gone.
What a song, i love it.
I Ching
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Eight Pi, Holding Toghether, Union
Seek Union With Others and the sage.
I recomend to all the I ching its a great book.
Runes
Rune Perth Reveresed
Something Hidden, A Secret Matter
I recomend you buy a runes book to, because i am to lazy to type messages about the I ching or Runes |
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[May. 13th, 2005|08:45 pm] |
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This is I, Devin, the vallient warrior, back from a long journey. Lol and a journey of hell it has been. Sorry, just had to rant there. I write today to note three things. One my generation blows, to many dramatic people who cant just live in the future. |
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